My darling Rabecca

Hello my sweet girl! You have been on my mind a lot lately and I miss you so much!I think about you and how you might be now. I wonder if you would have curly hair or if it would be straight like mine? I wonder if you would like to dance in the living room with me? I look at your little sister Bella and I see her playing and dancing and wearing her tutu's and sometimes I can see you dancing right there with her. Maybe it's my imagination but I like to think that it is you ...playing with your sister and dancing and playing right along side of her. She tells me that you are her favorite sister....and that melts my heart :)
I have such a hard time living without you. I know that you served your purpose here, but I wasn't finished being your mom. I would give anything to be able to feel the sweetness of you breathing on my face, or to see you pucker out those sweet lips, or even to hear your cat like squeak......just one more time. I have not been since your birthday to your sleeping place, but I promise you that I will go and bring you new flowers this weekend. It is just so hard to go there, because I feel like I am leaving you again and again and again each time I pull away. You are my darling angel .......I love you more than words will ever express. Love, mommie